My apologies are never good enough,
Even with these methodologies, I still can’t see the bluff, so
Would someone teach me how to breathe, now I’m seeking that release
Cuz I’m buried underneath, but I’m tryna dig it up

I had my eyes closed too long, to see you walk right along
Tell me where do I belong, if it’s not right in your arms
But now I’m smoking on a bong, belting out a drunken song
Lookin back at everything that could and did go so wrong so

You wanted to leave, I guess that’s okay, but
I’m going to flow bout what happened that day
Cuz another chunk of my heart’s taken away
And we only ever saw one Christmas Day

So you tell me that you’re good, you say that you’re okay
What about the way I felt when you threw me away
I was soaring so high, never thought I would sway
But you shot me down quicker than kids by the NRA

When I look into your eyes,
I see the stars up in the sky
I’m getting dizzier dizzier, why
Let the hole burn through my mind

When the spiral starts I stall
Through the leaves and the trees I fall
I’m getting closer and closer, I sprawl
I throw my dreams up on the wall

I wasn’t tryna predict this, but I kinda knew
I know that I am addicted, when I look at you
Don’t gotta contradict it, so the coop I flew
Now I’m missing all those kisses, that I had with you

I wish I could hold you, my dreaming is blasted
With heartbreak and headaches, my love life’s disastrous
The foot’s on the old shoe, this all could’ve lasted
If talking were taken, we could just move past it


My heart’s still aflame with that love that I had
I know you’re determined, and that makes me sad
I’m wishing you’d call and turn back what we had
I dream of perfection, my heart is unclad

I let myself down, now I’m back on defense
I’ve broken my crown, nothing ever makes sense
I jump in the water, but at my own expense
The water, I drown, prolly cuz I’m just dense

When I look into your eyes,
I see the stars up in the sky
I’m getting dizzier dizzier, why
Let the hole burn through my mind

When the spiral starts I stall
Through the leaves and the trees I fall
I’m getting closer and closer, I sprawl
I throw my dreams up on the wall