My apologies are never good enough, Even with these methodologies, I still can’t see the bluff, so Would someone teach me how to breathe, now I’m seeking that release Cuz I’m buried underneath, but I’m tryna dig it up I had my eyes closed too long, to see you walk right along Tell me where do I belong, if it’s not right in your arms But now I’m smoking on a bong, belting out a drunken song Lookin back at everything that could and did go so wrong so You wanted to leave, I guess that’s okay, but I’m going to flow bout what happened that day Cuz another chunk of my heart’s taken away And we only ever saw one Christmas Day So you tell me that you’re good, you say that you’re okay What about the way I felt when you threw me away I was soaring so high, never thought I would sway But you shot me down quicker than kids by the NRA When I look into your eyes, I see the stars up in the sky I’m getting dizzier dizzier, why Let the hole burn through my mind When the spiral starts I stall Through the leaves and the trees I fall I’m getting closer and closer, I sprawl I throw my dreams up on the wall I wasn’t tryna predict this, but I kinda knew I know that I am addicted, when I look at you Don’t gotta contradict it, so the coop I flew Now I’m missing all those kisses, that I had with you I wish I could hold you, my dreaming is blasted With heartbreak and headaches, my love life’s disastrous The foot’s on the old shoe, this all could’ve lasted If talking were taken, we could just move past it My heart’s still aflame with that love that I had I know you’re determined, and that makes me sad I’m wishing you’d call and turn back what we had I dream of perfection, my heart is unclad I let myself down, now I’m back on defense I’ve broken my crown, nothing ever makes sense I jump in the water, but at my own expense The water, I drown, prolly cuz I’m just dense When I look into your eyes, I see the stars up in the sky I’m getting dizzier dizzier, why Let the hole burn through my mind When the spiral starts I stall Through the leaves and the trees I fall I’m getting closer and closer, I sprawl I throw my dreams up on the wall